today was okay. i practiaclly broke my toe, TWICE today ugh. tonight im going to jellybeans, then tomorrow carrabas at 5 w/ some friends, then i might sleepover at alyssas .. idk. then sunday im going to the preston pool. it'll be fun i guess. nothing realli special even though its my birthday. normal just like all my other sucky birthdays.

life sucks right now, idk it just realli does, lately i just find it hard to look on any brightside </3. whatever.

i really wish my digital cam would upload, becz i need some freakin new pics and i have a shitload of them on my cam.

so i took the cheer up emo kid layout and made it more colorful =). u likey? i had some time on my hands.

so i've been sorting out all this shit thats going on and im just letting it go, shit happens, just let everything run its course, i'm sick of trying to fix everything.

i found the cure to growing older
and you're the only place that feels like home
just so you know you'll never know
and some secrets weren't meant to be told

i'm the first kid to write of hearts lies and friends
and i am sorry my conscience called in sick again
and i've got arrogance down to a science

so douse yourself in cheap perfume
it's so fitting of the way you are
you can't cover it up

-FOB<33

com-ments puh-leez <3 thatshottt.

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i watched the oc season finale just now. omfg that show makes me cry and dont get me wrong NOTHING like realli, NOTHING makes me cry, i think it reminds me how fucked up my family and life is, no one knows my full story but u know, i dont really trust anyone quite that much, which sucks, but whatever. blah. i love the oc <33 season finale--ugh. not back till fall.

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im so tired today. im emo. i just dont care about anything.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

might go to ozzfest whenever in charlotte with kyle, chris, hannah, and doug. kyle says ill have to sit on his lap for 3 hours. oh well.

oh yeah i finally got a haircut since like january. its hott.

i dont know who i love.

fuck you you whore i dont give a fuck what you have to say so fuck off

and dont tell me not to drink, i'm not addicted, i'm so glad my friends are talking behind my back, i didn't drink yesterday, what the fuck

look people are already pissed, ah i dont care, i dont even drink once a week, yeah im FUCKING ADDICTED.

MAYBE I SHOULD KILL MYSELF IF I BOTHER U THAT MUCH. U WONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MY DRINKING THEN.

no im jk i wont kill myself cause yall are shitbags

seriously don't mess with me today

i love you jake, baby your the best <3